Tomorrow marks the day I complete another circle around the ball of fire. Normally, a day for retrospectives etc but this is technically not a milestone birthday (as in, not divisible by 5 or 10 or starting with 1), so retrospective can wait.
A sibling recently had a health scare ( lately, a lot more of that happening with people I know. Probably a sign of my own age). It was a routine surgery at the end of the day but the days and hours leading up to it were nerve-wrecking. This comes on the heels of some scares and recent scares about my own health. Some erroneous test showed that I was on advanced risk for heart attack, another one showed that I am in early stages of a condition I have dreaded me entire life, besides the other one where I have reduced vision in one eye.
But none of those damn test results mattered. I was more worried about this routine surgery than I was about my own (possibly) life-altering conditions. Not trying to be humble but even the thought of having something happen to her sucked the life out of me.
I have always been selfish so wish I never have to hear any such news about a loved one anymore. Heard recently that death is like stupidity. It affects people around you more than it impacts you. Sorry everyone...
