So....my boss decided to leave. Not a surprise really. It was a ticking time bomb so nit was a matter of time. I moved under the CTO which means I have to build the relationship all over again.
The age old question rears it's head. If I have to rebuild the relationship, why not do it elsewhere for more money and loftier title. The new boss is a "shoot first, ask questions later" kind of guy. He might make be (good kinds of) uncomfortable but he also might dig into areas I am aware I am weak in, viz. for the first time, I don't have enough data to run the org.
The team is no ways in a great shape but I am already bored. I can change and make it better but I have held back thinking I won't be here long.
Oddly enough, I have the confidence of the SLT/CxO in what I do. I have the relationship with the largest account the company has. The CxOs trust me. The team is fairly capable. Just today, an ex-CxO reached out to ask me if I am feeling ok with all the changes. All of this is great for the ego, just not for the bank balance.
I am acutely aware of the parallels with the cushy job I left a year before the COVID hell. I paid for that miscalculation for many years. With the AI-pocalypse on the horizon, it might be a stupid move to take a leap and be out of job in no time. I can fib my way through an interview but I fear I am not doing enough right now.
Looking at people around me (spouse included) I am very grateful that I have a job/paycheck but the nagging feeling of being worth more might either be my undoing or might take me to unprecedented heights. Only time will tell.
